Secretgaze530's Journals

~8 Facts About Me~

1.) I have a lot of crushes..more than 10 (celebrities and singer don't count) =D

2.)There was a time in my life I dreamt to be a BALLERINA! Yup, that's right, those girls who dressed in pink tutus hah!

3.)Whenever I'm pissed with a person I wish a garden of pimples zits, blemishes, scars and all that unwanted things on the skin would sprout on there faces and wish it would last FOREVER! LOL, this is sooo lame but true!

4.)I love Hello Kitty!!!

5.)I'm sadistic but I still have a heart when it comes to real life experiences...

6.)When boredom strikes me, sometimes, I dream that I would be able to witness my school get destroyed in any way, in any time

7.)I don't ever wanna smoke or get a tattoo (Tats are cool but c'mon, its permanent!)

8.)BUT if I'm ever gonna get a tattoo it would say," MAMA WE ALL GO TO HELL"

I tagged crazeemcrfan, shotlipglossveinz, and 13mcr13

glOOmy sUndAy

Sunday is Gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will
never awaken you
Not where the black coach
of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of
ever returning you
Would they be angry
if I thought of joining you
Gloomy Sunday!

Sunday is gloomy
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have
decided to end it all
Soon there'll be candles
and prayers that are said,
I know, but let them not weep,
let them know
that I'm glad to go

Death is no dream,
for in death I'm caressing you
With the last breath of my
soul I'll be blessing you

Gloomy Sunday
Dreaming
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
asleep in the deep of
my heart dear

Darling I hope that my dream
never haunted you
My heart is telling you
how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday
Gloomy Sunday

Rise of the Stench

Matthew Callanta.

A lot of people have been saying he reeks! Because he's a "mama's boy" he's kinda fat..well...not just kinda. Anyway, today we have a new seatplan. When our secretary called out my name after his name, all I could do is stare in shock! I mean..think about the smells that's gonna corrupt the mind's system! Anyway, I couldn't argue because I can't just give, "Because he stinks!" as an excuse or something. So when I went there. He injured his foot after being hit by a truck (wow...I always wonder how he still lived..i mean..c'mon, it's a TRUCK?!). Anyway, the place is crowded!!! I actually thought, look on the bright side, at least I'm near the window and the board. Luckily a friend of mine sat in front of me so I have someone to talk to. I told her about my crush then Matthew teased. I told him I'd tell him mine if he'd tll his. From that topic, we began to talk. I found out he was nice and funny. I actually felt sorry for thinking bad....BUT...it was true...HE DOES STINK! Everytime he talks, the place would be filled with stench! There was a moment where I wanted to spray my cologne to the area!!! I couldn't though because it was during class hours so teachers tend to confiscate or call attention. Also, if I could, I would've sparyed my cologne at him!!!!!!!! Ugh he needs some deodorant or something.

*It's okay that he's my seatmate after finding out his personality but wth would I do with the smell stinkin' up the whole place?*

What should I do?
1.) Tell him? (Honesty is the Best policy)
2.) Ignore it (It might hurt his feelings)
3.) Cologne (Spray it before and after every subject or whenever necessary)
4.) Break his other leg so he'd be absent the whole trimester!!! (JUST KIDDING!)
5.) Other

Pick Your Choice

Classroom Elections today is SO unexpecting!!! The boys campaign name was P.U.S.S.Y. which stands for "Polite Understanding Socially-Skilled Youngsters" while the girls is C.O.C.K. stands for Charming Officers slightly Crazy yet Kind". P.U.S.S.Y. so far is leading but I voted for C.O.C.K. because P.U.S.S.Y. people are too annoying! They keep shouting, "Vote straight P.U.S.S.Y.!" in the corridor then shakes your hand or something! The name started when a friend of mine brought this furry stuff toy that when you touch it moves. Mac (the guy behind P.U.S.S.Y.) kept borrowing it and eventually he called it PUSSY). The reason why the elections was not postponed is because our adviser has NO CLUE of what the dirty meaning of these words are! Whenever she says PUSSY I can not stop laughing!!! And, we must be the ONLY section in this entire school that ever had campaign with these kind of names and that also spent a lot of money with it! P.U.S.S.Y. got banners, laminated name tags and stuff like that!

*P.S. I was N-E-V-E-R a part of any campaign members*

Deathwish

Lying in the hospital bed
Hands so frail, he looked dead
Respiratory seems to be failing
His friends left him there wailing
Sign of pain in his face

Heartbeat slowing its pace
Looks like a zombie physically
With a heart that's bleeding intensely
The Grim Reaper silently calls his name
Death of many, he is to blame

His whispers echoing down the hall
Passing through the concrete wall
Black mists forming from the floor
As he stood by the door
Ripping his spirit with his blade

A bloody job he's not even paid
His life-long cursed role
Wishing for death to come get his soul
Killing is the Grim Reaper's thrill
As he slashed him, his wish fulfilled

Something the Reaper gladly granted
Just one of the creatures of the enchanted
When your candle light burns out
He tends to be cunning, no time for you to shout
Be ready to die

In my coffin here I lie
As I wait for your arrival
No use pleading for my survival
With a heart made by hatred and death
I give to you my last remaining breathe

The Nightmare Begins

I'm lying in bed just staring at the ceiling
Wishing the day would just stop
Drenched in sweat, an uncomfortable feeling
Damn this temperature has got to drop

As the sun rose and showered my room with brightness
I quickly got ready for school
Went downstairs to find my mom with her usual corny-ness
Said, "Don't worry..school's cool."

Marked the calendar with a "Today I'm gonna die."
An obvious bored look on my face
Grabbed some toast and waved her goodbye
Just walked with a steady pace

I was walking straight to my new classroom
Sigh, "Here I go..."
A few steps, a few minutes away from my doom
I stared in horror as my teacher evily grinned, "Hello".

Ryan Ross's LiveJournal

I remember reading Ryan or was it Panic!'s biography. Anywho, it said that Ryan contacted Pete using Livejournal so they can get fame. Anyway, I decided to do a little search about it and i got some results!

HE DID HAVE ONE!

http://ex-i-amcland189.livejournal.com/

but don't keep your hopes up....because he deleted it!

His livejournal was way before they got famous and he was obssessed with his ex-girlfriend (but that time they weren't together)

http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/11915219.html?thread=1361326291#t1361326291

That's where I got the whole info!

The best thing is...he listens to My Chemical Romance! He dances on the song "You know What they do t guys like Us in Prison"